post-xmas grumpiness... well, more like, difficulties with my parents... it really hurts to see how much they are disappointed in me... but, like i said once, i can't listen to them... they decide to make unreasonable demands on me and try to force me to give up anything that carries any meaning for me... impossible... oh well... i shall try not to complain excessively...
found some comfort in a few passages i read today... reassurance that justice will ultimately come about (psalm 62), that we should rejoice in our sufferings for Christ... the knowledge that tensions within the family are to be expected in this world (matthew 10), and the calling to love our enemies all the same (matthew 5)...
u mite wonder, would i be overreacting to call my parents my "enemies"?!? i don't think so... a lot of the stuff they say to me lately places them firmly in the camp of my enemies (and i in the camp of theirs)... it's made me think long and seriously about moving out... i really considered relocating myself to a place that's closer to city, closer to friends, and away from the exasperation that i find is my constant companion whenever i'm in my parents' company... no amount of domestic convenience outweighs the demoralisation they hurl at me day after day...
nevertheless - in matthew 5, we are called to walk that extra mile with those who ask us to, reluctant tho we may be... and to love our enemies... does this speak to me?!? perhaps... maybe it's telling me that i should stay at home and bear it... the power of Jesus Christ shall keep me alive and able to withstand everything that comes my way... in that i trust... and hoping that i may only be strengthened thru endurance...
“Whoever acknowledges me before men, I will also acknowledge him before my
Father in heaven. But whoever disowns me before men, I will disown him before my Father in heaven.
“Do not suppose that I have come to bring peace to the earth. I did not
come to bring peace, but a sword. For I have come to turn ‘a man against his
father, a daughter against her mother, a daughter-in-law against her
mother-in-law – a man's enemies will be the members of his own
household.’
“Anyone who loves his father or mother more than me is not worthy of me; anyone who loves his son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me; and anyone who does not take his cross and follow me is not worthy of me.
Whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for my sake will
find it. - Matthew 10:32-39
1 comment:
Hi Dave. Thanx for ur comment on my blog. I really understand ur situation here, and I think the most important thing is to let our connections to this world die to the Lord, and then let His perfect love revive our interactions with them. This love is not going to be instant noodle soup that will be ready in 2 mins, but it will come slowly as He grows you. and most of all, this love will be perfect and non-selfish.
Yup... none of us in Christ is ever alone, and I have faith in Him that He will work through you and give u enough light for every step you take.
In Christ, YN
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