fern's msn name is kinda relevant right now... "sometimes i wonder why, why i'm even here at all, but then you assure me, i'm a little more than useless"
it's true, God cares for me, God cares for each one of us... i mean, He created us in His image... we bear His likeness, so what more need we do but look in the mirror and see that God is with us!!!
had christian union meeting today - talked abt revelation 4-5, transport to heaven in Jesus' revelation to john... and how much more did God intend for us to have!!! God is with us already - but look at the middle of the passage, and realise that john was weeping, for there was nobody worthy to open up God's scroll - i.e. set God's plan in motion... - this is kinda where we feel we're at... incomplete, meaningless, useless... we weep too... for we find we are blind to what God has yet to reveal...
but the one who is worthy to open up God's scroll is, of course, Jesus... ;p He, the lion-lamb, has come to reveal the glory of God to us here on earth... so that we may be with Him in heaven in the time to come!!! our purpose is also revealed in this passage - that is, to worship the living God with all we are, and in all we do... praise God!!!
so why is it that i still feel useless?!? i want to be all things to all ppl... i want to go beyond who i am, to be who God wants me to be... and coz i fall so far short of God's standards, i'm overwhelmed by a sense of inadequacy... i wish to be able to extend and share my sense of God's presence with the world, and with those around me... yet i'm stopped by my own inability to recognise my own problems in the first place... i jus pray, full of the knowledge that God's plan is in motion, that Jesus has unrolled the scroll for my life... i wonder what will become of it in the end... i pray God, tho it's hard to see right now, that my life will be a true light for the world...
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just remember...
you cannot be all things to everyone.
but you can be everything to just someone.
for that someone, you have been everything.
and that, is something.
ps-i don't think i'll be able to read all of this... how much catch-up do i have to do? 'huff, puff'... it's like doing the cross country... waa.. it just never ends...! ;) altho perhaps i will reach the end sometime (and that is when i will have completely forgotten the beginning. as u do.)
I wonder what you would prefer - to please everybody a little bit, or to please one person a lot.
thx anne ;p u are really encouraging!!! i would love to think that's true, i guess i can only try, and let me be me...
i guess one of the biggest things for me is acceptance - accepting ppl for who they are... but i acknowledge that this can be unhelpful sometimes - i.e. while i accept them for who they are, i ought to go beyond and encourage them to be who they can be... - however, i think i ought to apply the reverse principle to myself... while i want to be more than i am, i find it very hard to accept my limitations being who i currently am... and this, i find is probably quite an issue, driving me into the emotional underground...
as for the anonymous commenter - if u are who i think u are ;p - then i think u know the answer already... anne's comment sums it up well, be everything to just someone... and yes, that would be something...
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