A-Team...

Working in the ED again since yesterday, I've been sicker than some of the patients that have come through our doors! It's only a matter of time before this cough clears up, and the worst of it's over now. Either way, I'm happy to be working, as it seems to distract my mind from my cough and sickness (ironic, eh?) - and the moment I stop doing things, the cough starts up again. Oh well. That's life.

Anyhow, just killing time at the moment, end of my shift - and we've cleared the rooms pretty well! Not patients going "kaput!" if that's the idea you're getting - no, patients getting better and going home, by and large. This is the ED doctor's idea of nirvana, or as close as it gets in some ways. Some like it busy, but this - the sound of silence - can't be beaten, honestly! Given how busy it was at the start of the shift, it seems miraculous. Go A-Team!

Just recently, I bought a book by Philip Yancey called "Prayer: Does it make any difference?", a commentary on prayer and its role in our lives. I have found it very helpful, even from the outset. It begins by detailing some extraordinary statistics - 90% of Americans in a certain news-media survey claim to pray on a regular basis, with about a third praying at least daily. Some renowned historical prayer warriors, such as Martin Luther, used to spend up to four or five hours regularly, daily, on their knees, rising early to open the day with communion with the Creator. Other faiths, such as Islam, also perpetuate the idea of prayer as an essential way to commune with God, so important that they stop what they do in order to pray five times per day.

I admit, though, that I am not a model prayer warrior by any means. Daily prayer, yes. But, like most people, I spend barely 10 or 15 minutes in prayer, relating to God (our Creator, the most important relationship in my life) my honest thoughts and pleas, my praise for him and so on. And a lot of the time, I'm so tired when I pray, that my prayers come out a jumble of muddled up thoughts with no structure, little focus and concentration. I have thoughts like, if God knows everything, then why do we have to present our requests to him anyway?

I guess, first and foremost, we have to look at prayer in a different light - it is our direct means of communication and relationship with God. It is for our benefit, that God's presence might be felt, his blessing come down, as a stream rolls steadily down the mountainside. We are so privileged to be able to bathe in this stream - one that is accessible at any time, under any circumstance. Amazing, eh? It is more than just requests - after all, God does know our requests before we ask (although he loves to hear from his children, and answers our prayers as a father to his child) - it is our communion with God. What greater delight have we than to bask in the presence of God's glory?

Then, why do we spend so little time in prayer? Is communion with God not more important than pretty much anything else? Why do we lose perspective? Our perspectives tend to be guided away, in this day and age, by the immediate concerns of this world. Working hard in the ED here, I barely get time to think about anything else but my patients. Taking a moment to breathe (or cough) is a rare thing! And it's not just this kind of work, either. It is a problem everywhere - so much so that Thomas Merton, when asked to name the single greatest spiritual disease of our time, answered, "efficiency". Idle time is frowned on, we should always be working! That's why it's so remarkable to have this time now to write this blog. And think about God, and pray. Our perspectives get skewed. When we step back, and have a look at everything properly, we realise that the concerns of this moment are hardly a speck in the woods. In the moment, however, they are all the world to us.

What we need is to remind ourselves, every day, of this perspective problem. Take a step back, and look at your life from start to finish. Go outside, look at the sky and the stars. Go to the beach, watch the waves roll in - no matter what we do, these things never change. God is in control.

I hope that we can take this step back in the midst of our busy lives, and remember what really matters!