Springtime!!!

wow, last couple of days have been amazing ;p i don't really know what to say, but yeh, i feel so fully invigorated and renewed in my being after a really horrible couple of days... feel like rejoicing!!!

such a complete turnaround from jus couple of days ago... when sal & i were finding communication a struggle... even tho there seemed so little real reason for unhappiness, and i had every reason to rejoice, my world felt so empty... so empty that i felt like a dumb animal trapped inside a cave filling with mud, and nobody could hear and understand my anguish... my eyes gazed upon a world that i could not understand, nor could i make myself understood... not even my closest companion felt within reach... i felt like echoing the words of David in psalm 22:

"My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?
Why are you so far from saving me,
so far from the words of my groaning?
O my God, I cry out by day, but you do not answer,
by night, and am not silent."
- Psalm 22:1-2

but praise to Him who performs miracles!!!

human relationships are always so full of wonder and mystery!!! at once so fulfilling that one captures a ray of brilliant light from heaven... but at other times, one is driven to the depths of despair, one starts to enter into their own shakespearean tragedy...

anywayz - it's only 2 more days til spring!!! ;p and the weather has been very springy... hmmm... minus the hayfever ;p i hope it can stay this way for a lil while, sunshine illuminating the natural spendour of green grasslands and trees starting to bear all manner of colours... before i'm too busy sneezing to appreciate the scenery ;p - best remedy: mometasone furoate nasal spray (i'll refrain from using trade names here)... discovered that one on my elective term...

so i hope the change of weather heralds a good season of happiness and growth for all of us ;p - and may we always remember God's miraculous power of restoration!!!

On popular demand...

hey ;p am writing coz have been bugged by ppl to update blog!!! yes, it's been a while!!! but yah, it's also been a while since i've practised music, felt on top of all my study, or done any exercise!!! so yah... hmmm, i'm not so sure blogging ought to be this high up on my priority list... but anyhow, as i'm here already...

am in a strangely enough happy state atm, considering tomorrow is monday... with another busy week ahead, i wonder whether i should be this happy... ;p but i'm not going to complain... i have far too much to be thankful for... as chapter one of ephesians (which sal & i are studying lately) doesn't tire of reminding us, we have a life of spiritual blessing granted us by God's grace for the praise of His glory, so this is the real reason why we should be rejoicing!!!

despite this, i've been spending far too much time on utopia - such a horrible timesink!!! it's exciting to see our province grow quickly!!! our military attack random enemies, and then hoping and doing all we can to stop enemies getting back at us... keep fingers tight ;p haha... scheming, plotting... warring... hmmm... why is it so addictive, i wonder?!? is it the thrill of entering the imaginary world of fantasy characters, even more so that we have control over some of them?!? is it the inner competitive spirit being fanned into flame?!? or just an escape from reality?!?

hmmm... anywayz, for those who don't know much abt utopia, it's an online game where u control a province, u're part of a kingdom, and in the world there are many, many kingdoms that partake in wars and tussle and compete through exploration and conquest to become the biggest, best, most honourable in the known utopian world... it's actually immensely complex and one can get lost in and among the intricacies, with thieves, mages, military, infrastructure and politics among the many domains of operation you have under your control... ;p hmmm... argh, we just had lots of spells cast on us!!! hmmmz... ;p war as we speak!!!

;p errrm, enough of utopia for a while... hmmm... shall go now... anywayz, the world we should fix our minds on is this one depicted in revelation 22, the true utopia (from today's odb):

"Then the angel showed me the river of the water of life, as clear as crystal, flowing from the throne of God and of the Lamb down the middle of the great street of the city. On each side of the river stood the tree of life, bearing twelve crops of fruit, yielding its fruit every month. And the leaves of the tree are for the healing of the nations. No longer will there be any curse. The throne of God and of the Lamb will be in the city, and his servants will serve him. They will see his face, and his name will be on their foreheads. There will be no more night. They will not need the light of a lamp or the light of the sun, for the Lord God will give them light. And they will reign for ever and ever." - Revelation 22:1-5

what an amazing thing we have to look forward to!!! Heaven ;p the place where God calls us to... no longer any curse, no more night, just our God who will have the created community He called from the beginning to serve Him!!! one day ;p it seems so different, so remote... yet we are called to fix our eyes on that future prepared in Jesus... and do what we can to bring God's purposes to earth... perspective, that's what we need more of...

God bless!!!
crazy dave

Busy bug...

it seems like i'm just playing catchup again... 8am starts, need sleep, not much time to study, so much stuff i still want to do (music, dancing - yes, dancing ;p - more reading, swimming, running, utopia - yes, that timesink!!! - etc) - and it's all a bit hard with jus 24 hrs in a day!!! so hmmm, this is the life i choose to look forward to?!? - really tho, i like it... somehow still i can manage to do most things with my time, still spend time alone with God, and at the end of it all, i still have lots of stuff to catch up on (and hence look forward to!!!)

i don't think i usually enjoy being busy... now, i'm strangely quite happy and satisfied with being busy like this... but i don't think it's best for me to classify my state of mind as being satisfied with being busy, rather jus coz i'm satisfied and happy with the things that matter, that being busy jus no longer bothers me...

sorry, i should keep this blog short - need to sleep soon!!! ;p

shall leave with this passage... it's abt martha and mary, actually it warns us against being too busy!!! - it's a necessary and timely reminder for someone busy like me that what really matters is not the stuff we do here on earth, but rather how we carry our hearts in front of the Lord... so, despite being busy, i pray that i always can make time to spend alone with God and in fellowship with others celebrating God!!!

At the Home of Martha and Mary
As Jesus and his disciples were on their way, he came to a village where a woman named Martha opened her home to him. She had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord's feet listening to what he said. But Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made. She came to him and asked, "Lord, don't you care that my sister has left me to do the work by myself? Tell her to help me!"
"Martha, Martha," the Lord answered, "you are worried and upset about many things, but only one thing is needed. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her." - Luke 10:38-42